Snow
I’m shaking all over, my mind is in turmoil. My body is freezing–or is it my heart? It has turned to dust now, all remnants a icy stone. Why am I like this? Why did you have to kill my heart? All it took was one word…. just….
I told you I wrote, didn’t I? Well, that’s that. I have a broken heart. And not like, shattered into pieces, more like, microscopic grains of ice. Ouch. My entire body is freezing up, and I can’t feel it. Great. At least I know I won’t die from it. I’ll be all set to break again the next time this happens to me.
It still hurts though.
He doesn’t like me, in case you were wondering, not that you did. He never will. Ever. At least not that way. And now I think it’s my fault. I mean, why else would I have this much bad luck with guys? I don’t feel like I can ever be happy again…. and my mind won’t wander from his name, his face… who he is and who I am and how it seemed for a second that it was meant to be.
Sorry to bore you with my talk, here’s the picture of today.
So now you see the snow. When I’m feeling happier or when there is more snow, I’ll take a picture of the trees in my backyard.
One thing is for sure, I cannot wait until spring. I hope that the warmer weather can melt my heart again.
I was talking to my friend before, and we both agreed–wouldn’t it be nice if life was a romance novel? Not everything starts with a mysterious person though, and not everything can end with a kiss scene well rehearsed in life. If only! It would be nice if everyone got their happily-ever-after, and could live life in a fairytale, but then again there are the wicked stepmothers, and then again, not everyone’s prince charming can be there forever. And sometimes, Mr. Charming isn’t always so charming.
I’m not saying, of course, that he’s a jerk, because he isn’t. He’s funny, nice, caring, and helpful. But sometimes people say what they don’t mean to say, and I guess he told me right then and there that he didn’t like me that way and that there was no hope in the century. Doesn’t that feel great?
At least I’m not alone, I mean, most of the girls on my chatlist right now have status messages about broken hearts, lost loves, and the pain of someone not liking them back. This happens, I know, but isn’t this a bit too much?
It might be unreasonable to ask that everyone get their Prince at the end,
but why can’t anyone get a Knight-in-shining-armor to love them forever?
IMO, knights are like a compensation prize. So why can’t I at least get one of those? >.<
Extremely stressed-out right now, and it doesn’t look pretty. Maybe I’ll be back tomorrow, maybe not. URGH!!!!!
–Aki
Hane-chan said,
February 5, 2009 at 10:21 pm
v_v Akinae-chan… *hug*
Saku said,
February 5, 2009 at 11:19 pm
it’s not as bad as u think it is ( sounds stupid I know )
last year I was rly sad the whole year, because my boyfriend and I broke up ( we were dating for about a year! ) I thought I could never love anyone like that again, but u know what? I’m rly happy right know. I found a rly nice person this year… ( the strange thing about it is, that I know him about 5 years!! )
Well…
what I want to say:
take ur time forgetting about him and then find a new better love.. maybe u’ll even find him somewhere, where u wouldn’t expect it ^.^
sounds probably stupid right now, I think xD I always thought this about ppl, who told me that I’ll find someone, who’s better than the one I rly loved, it’s just strange. But other ppl can’t do anything but say things like that and than try to cheer u up or at least doing something with u so u won’t have to think about him the whole time xD
I hope u get what I mean and I hope u’ll be happy again soon <3
greetz,
Saku-chan ( I’m from Haato Project xDD )
danceuponthestars said,
February 14, 2009 at 4:32 am
Saku-chan!!! Hii! Well, it turns out that he likes me back, and that it was a whole big mess, so…~
I’ve never felt happier! <333